I’m drowning in alcohol tonight while you’re coughing up dirt
Six feet under ground.
Tell me dear, what’s it like up there?
Four long years have passed and I don’t quite remember your
I remember the way we all lined up in a sea of black while the angels cried
tears of rain, grieving with us.
Fuck you for making me realize that I could die at fifteen,
And I hate how you made your parents cry. You even
Made my mother cry and she didn’t even know you
You were a beautiful soul who didn’t deserve to watch us
Go to prom, get in college, and feel the sting
Of growing up while you soaked in your youth like a hot bath.
Four years have passed and I swear to you
That we have all changed in so many terrifying ways
While your lovely smile has never wavered.
Even though we shared one god damn gym class,
You haunt me every time I pass your house.
And I’ve cursed God in your name and told him he’s cruel
For making me forget the way your eyes gleamed